I have experienced delusions of grandeur.
I really want to complete things in order.
I feel, however, that God has isolated me intentionally
And needs to talk to me in private.
God wants me all to Himself and keeps me in hushed, knowing conversations,
Subtle, inside jokes and gentle steering of where He requires me to be.
He makes me smile,
Reminds me I’m beautiful in the morning
Misses my attention when I’m distracted
And guards me savagely from harm.
God sits with me when I write.
He plays music while I hum.
He coaches me while I exercise.
He whispers confidence when I sleep.
God prepares my money, structures my career and walks with my children.
God likes it when my eyes change color…
…when I work a little faster
…when I read His scripture twice over.
God pulls me close to Him when I’m angry
Dusts me off when I’m disappointed
Says my name in every language to talk to me.
“Love,” He says, “is right beside you.”
“That emptiness – is not loneliness.
That ache is not solitude.
That challenge is not weakness.
It is a chance for your faith to speak to me, to love, to heal.”
“It is I,“He says.
“It is Love. I will never leave you or forsake you. But get to know Me first.”
I gave Him my life, my heart and my choices.
He gives me Psalm 46:10, Proverbs 3:5-6, John 3:16, Psalm 71:1, 1 Corinthians 14:33.
And He said, “..Daughter, thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace, and be whole of thy plague.” Mark 5:34. But before I go, God wants to talk to me privately.